Friday the 13th Scan
Posted to Facebook on 1/13/17
We left NYP before we got Ana’s scan results today (as planned) and didn’t get home until 6. So, I have no news, but I didn’t want anyone to think I wasn’t posting because the results were too awful to share. I’m fine waiting until Monday (or never) to hear what Dr. Yamashiro has to say.
The day was pretty routine as far as scan days go. Ana got her labs drawn before the scan. We saw Dr. Yamashiro met us in the CT area and examined her (briefly) before she was called down. It was really nice of him to come all the way over from the clinic (it’s in a separate hospital building and is a good 10 minute walk from where we were). We also saw Dr. Martinez (Ana’s hepatologist) who searched all over the place before she found us. That was really sweet of her even though it makes me sad whenever I see her. She was the first doctor we met at Columbia. We’d had so much hope that Ana’s liver transplant would fix everything.
I feel a bit anxious that we didn’t go to the clinic and get the results – not because I want to know what they are, but because it felt like an insult to Dr. Yamashiro. I don’t know if this is some kind of old fashioned protocol burned into my brain since childhood or what, but I have the urge to email him and apologize, like it was somehow impolite (“Sorry we couldn’t bring ourselves to drag Ana to the pediatric oncology clinic, a place that’s been perpetually disappointing her for the last four years…”) I know he’s worked hard and done his best, but it’s hard not to feel disappointed.