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  1. I have just finished reading your post The last crane: in our Hamilton Spectator, Canada.
    It’s Easter Sunday,and as l look at your beautiful daughter’s last school picture l am filled with grief for you and your family. As a mom also,our total love for our children is to shield and protect them.Know that you and your family did all that was humanly possible to help Ana.
    Breathe, you are breathing for her, Look, Hear..she surrounds you.
    Peace.

  2. I am grateful you can still manage to find a way to express the inexpressible, Jackie. We all benefit from your generous heart. You are a mother, poet, philosopher, and teacher, of the highest order.

  3. This section of C.S. Lewis’ essays on A Grief Observed, was a sort of blessing for me, letting me know that what others might see as curious or unique, were real and nameable. :“No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. ……. At other times it feels like being mildly drunk, or concussed. There is a sort of invisible blanket between the world and me.” There is more .but you don’t need it all now. Take your time. The journey is long. Thank you for sharing your writing.

  4. I was just going through grocery coupons tonight, and started crying because there was an ad for Ensure. Which was all my dad could drink the last couple of months. I also remember vividly the quiet panic I felt when life around me kept moving and I was being dragged along with it, because everything seemed pretty stupid and inconsequential, like going to the dentist.

    I feel off kilter missing Ana too. For five years she’s been part of my nightly routine; all of you have. You still are. But it’s a constant reminder that things have changed, because the prayers have changed too. It’s unfamiliar, and I don’t like it, because I’m a creature of habit.

    Thanks for saying it better than I can!

  5. She will ALWAYS be proud of her mom, her family, her support system. The roles have reversed some what now though, Ana is looking out for you, watching and making sure things will go well, be good and eventually be as normal as possible.
    As always your strength amazes me. My heart, my love hold you all close. HUGS

  6. You’re an incredibly good writer Jackie… reading everything you write during l this process …it is so painful to read but paints everything so clearly… I am forever feeling your sadness ??????

  7. Woah, this one really touched me so deeply. Thank you for putting words to this void, this quiet, this silence. Love you. xoxo

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